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My novels are driven by a fascination of the odd bods and quirky types I’ve met in the gay world. Occasionally, I’m asked to choose a favourite. Here follows an extract from 16 in 61. It features two very colourful and amusing characters based on real life gay men who lived in the Belper, Derbyshire area in 1961 when I was 16.  16 in 61 is available to purchase by clicking on the book cover above. Tongue in cheek, a little fat queen called Dolly narrated to me a horror story about a hideously deformed old man called Jasper Wormall. He sat, for hours, in a crumbling old cottage – gay parlance for a public toilet. ‘He’s like a ghastly spider,’ said Dolly, articulating carefully with beautiful round vowels through flabby fleshy cheeks. ‘He’s humped and bent - patiently waiting for prey.’ Teenage Narvel was being initiated into the art of cottaging in a tour of Victorian lavatories. We left the shopping area in a colliery Derbyshire town and turned into an ill-lit alley. Due to a sense of menace, the boy slowed, but Dolly urged him on with promises of pleasure at the entrance of a primordial gentleman's lavatory. I’m attempting to reveal the sordid secrets of homosexuality to the heterosexual majority. In so doing, it is important to make clear that I do not recommend such promiscuity to the youth of today. I’m simply saying that in the 1950s and 1960s - this was the reality for repressed teenage boys who shared same sex attraction. In that grim lavatory, Dolly guided his novice past the ghostly outline of several dark, silent figures lined up at the urinal. There were three WC cubicles. The first two were closed and occupied. In the faint dirty amber light available, I saw that the door of the last one was ajar several inches. Gently, Dolly urged his young friend forward, placing him in front of that partly open door and gave him a soft push. My eyes strained to adjust to the darker gloom of that cave-like entrance, to penetrate, to pierce the dismal depths, to discern, to make sense of that strange crooked shape within. In that silent moment, a silence which seemed profound, there came, from inside that cave to my ear, a short sound - a sort of 'click'. ‘Did you hear that?’ whispered Dolly. ‘Lucky boy! The click of a crone. It's the prelude to pleasure,’ sighed the little fat man in sibilant round vowels. ‘Advance! Yield! Offer yourself to this master of the extended orgasm. Give yourself - and know true bliss,’ he lisped rather theatrically into my youthful ear. But an instinct told me to stand my ground. I felt grateful for the protection of strong, form-hugging blue jeans and had high expectations with regard to the choice of a sexual partner. In my 1957 Heanor Mundy Street days, I was accustomed to the quick removal of false teeth in connection with the local paedophile - Guzzly Granddad - together with his ancient toothless bum chums who lived near the school. I’d also become accustomed to sex with boys my own age. In the Derbyshire coal fields, I had a romantic inclination and dreamed of meeting strong, masculine boys who had a full set of beautiful white natural teeth. On this tour, I was hoping Dolly would push me into the arms of a strapping young footballer of firm straight body - a footballer with no hump. Or, alternatively, a virile coal miner of rough manners who would not be too gentle and might 'bend me over t' bog'. Alas, as gradually became clear, this particular bog was not inhabited by a footballer, a miner - or even a young minor such as my hopeful self. There was a man in that bog, but not the man I would have chosen. It started with two points of reflected lecherous amber light, gleaming with lewd intent which, as my eyes continued to adjust, eventually revealed two grizzled leering eyes - horrible to behold. These deep, salacious sockets were set behind a rough-hewn beak of a nose - thrust forward - bent forward in eager anticipation of the juicy morsel at hand. Out of a drooling slash of toothless mouth emerged a snake of oscillating tongue, inviting, beckoning, urging its prey to enter, to be caressed, stroked, slurped and finally drained with oodles of Jurassic slobber. But this was not Granddad’s familiar cobra. Granddad was a real man, as butch as a brick. Everything about the Belper Crone was womanly. He was an effeminate ugly old queen! The dark, the damp, the sudden horror of being confronted by that grotesque goblin who dwelt within his murky cavern. It was all too much. A sudden panic!! I fled that cottage as if the very devil were at my heels. Such a quick exit alarmed other loiterers who quickly departed. This appalling spectre stayed in my mind for decades. It was something like the old hag in Snow White. How apt! ‘Mummy dust had made him old. Cackle of crone and scream of fright had greyed his hair.’ Later, Dolly tried to calm me with a short history of Jasper’s rough boyhood days in the late 1800s. He explained that Jasper was one of a gang of night-soil men who emptied garden privies before the introduction of water closets. These were the shadowy workers who emptied large buckets of ‘jollop’ into filthy carts during the hours of darkness. The boss was a local character - one Smelly Sam! His brother was known as Dirty Don and the night-soil cart was pulled by a horse called Wiffy Willy. An undersized ragamuffin called Jasper was the limey-lad. It was his job to walk ahead of the cart with a naked flame torch and spread lime over any spillages - ‘To get rid o’ stink.’ This smelly story has a happy ending. By way of a personal apology to Jasper, Dolly insisted that we visit him at his humble home in Belper. ‘He’s an intriguing charming character who enjoys entertaining visitors with tea and freshly baked cakes.’ Jasper lived in a simple stone cottage located up a rough track under a raucous rookery of constantly screaming crows from a crown of tall trees.  Above photograph: Could this be Jasper's cottage? He lived a mediaeval existence. There was no electricity, no gas and no running water. The loo was a rough hole in the garden over which you had to crouch. The ugly hunchback with his deep-set leering fish-eyes eyes behind a large beak nose, told us interesting tales of gay life in the old mill town of late nineteenth century Belper. In the years which followed, I enjoyed many visits to the medieval man in his crooked old cottage under the screaming crows from a crown of tall trees. Narvel Annable Information Sheet 183 is now available to view online. This is shown below, but for the best readable version that you can also download, then please visit the following link: https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/v3mg0iusahvnl15es3u5g/Info-Sheet-183.jpg?rlkey=phzvaa366qtsjv8yk7o97b8t6&st=9tof4wkv&dl=0   GHOST 1990 Ghost is a fascinating fantasy film - romantic love reaching beyond the grave. Sometimes spooky, this mystery thriller blends comedy and horror focusing on the grief of Molly Jensen [Demi Moore] when her lover, Sam Wheat [Patrick Swayze] is suddenly shot dead in a quiet New York street by Willie Lopez [Rick Aviles]. Big shock! It’s bad enough to be held up by a ferocious looking gunman demanding your wallet, but what followed is much worse. Sam is not a man to easily part with his cash to a snarling little mugger emerging from the shadows. Molly begs him to surrender, but a deadly scuffle ends in a gunshot. In the heat of the moment, we are delighted to see Sam giving chase to the running runt. He fails to catch the criminal, but, remembering Molly, he runs back to comfort her and gets the shock of his life – or death. Molly is cradling his dead body! She is pleading for him to come back – ‘Please don’t leave me Sam.’ She cries out – ‘Somebody! Please! Somebody help us.’ Sam, now a ghost, crouches down and tries to touch himself. An ambulance arrives and removes his dead body to the hospital where attempts of resuscitation are futile. Helplessly, Sam stays with a distraught Molly watching the unfolding of the whole miserable drama. The story, told from the point of view of the dead, inspired my 2019 novel Double Life subtitled – A Ghost Story set in Derbyshire. It was a shock when Sam discovers that his colleague Carl Bruner [Tony Goldwyn] in league with Willie Lopez, is working with drug barons in laundering their ill-gotten gains. Effectively, they are responsible for Sam’s death. Willie Lopez is an ugly frightening little character totally devoid of any conscience. It was a further shock for me to find that the real-life Willy [Rick Aviles] is a standup comedian! He didn’t make me laugh. But there were plenty of laughs from Oda Mae Brown [Whoopi Goldberg] who deserved her Academy Award for best supporting actor. Oda, is a feisty bubbly spiritual fake advisor and medium. Sam was appalled to see her taking advantage of vulnerable elderly ladies ‘milking them for every penny’. Observing her con artist methods, he openly castigated her cruel conduct - safe in the knowledge that nobody could see him - or hear what he said. But Oda was astonished to hear every insulting word at her sham séance. This proved that she was, in fact, a genuine spiritual medium! A friendship is established between Sam and Oda to thwart the evil axis of Carl and Willie who were intent of robbing the bank of four million dollars. Sam’s spirit is able to get about and observe Carl’s crafty computer work - including phone calls to the drug barons who are planning to launder this fortune. Just before the fraudulent transition is about to take place, Sam persuades Oda to attend the bank and pretend to be the fictional Rita Miller – holder of the account. Oda casually walks out of the bank with a cashier’s cheque worth millions. A frantic Carl sees on his computer – ACCOUNT CLOSED. He and Willie are now sure to be murdered by the mafia. A gloating ghost says – ‘Your dead, Carl! You’ll end up like Jimmy Hoffa.’ It is thought that Hoffa, a corrupt union boss, was thrown into an icy river wearing concrete boots. Meanwhile, Oda Mae Brown is joyfully striding through Manhattan telling Sam all the wonderful things she will do with all that lovely money. Oda thought she could keep the money. Sam explained – ‘No, this is blood money! I was murdered for this money. Your only guarantee of safety is to give it away – to a charity.’ She is outraged, but grudgingly hands the cheque to nuns collecting for the Catholic Church. I too was horrified! Peter Tatchell would be a much more deserving recipient. Sam learns that he can move through solid objects shown by special ‘PASS THROUGH’ effects - most impressive. He also acquires the skills of a poltergeist and is better able to protect Molly and Oda in the dramatic closing moments of the film - enhanced by beautiful digital effects and the emotional music of Maurice Jarre. The final minutes also brought tears to my eyes when Sam, ascending into heaven, tells Molly – ‘The love inside, you take it with you.’ Narvel Annable In my November bulletin, I referred to health issues which have crippled the smooth running of our home during the last six months. Belper Friends gay support group is now only a shadow of its former self – but - we try to keep cheerful and were glad to host a further modest gathering of the loyal few this December. Our meeting was another success. Bighearted Fred Bray fed us with delicious high-quality sandwiches - helped by generous contributions to the feast from all who attended. Conversations were entertaining, interesting and amusing. We experienced the vibrancy of camaraderie and a warmth of welcome. As in all our meetings, free food and hot drinks were enjoyed. In spite of the cold on a bleak midwinter day, our Christmas fuddle was a triumph! Excellent cake together with hot drinks kept us warm, cosy and fully involved in the discussion. We continue to be assisted by Fred. Over the years, he has electrified each meeting with his dazzling, powerful personality and eloquent delivery. Like a breath of fresh air, PC Bray came to our first 2017 event - and has attended nearly every meeting since. He has always taken time and trouble giving counselling, comfort and has solved numerous problems for members in need. A whirlwind! A bundle of energy! Fred made sure that we all received a hot drink with several more to follow. I make special mention of my Actor / Producer and Director friend - Bill Smith - who has enriched several previous meetings. He was sensitive enough to pick up my current state of anxiety and made a kind conscientious effort to enliven the meeting with hilarious stories from our youthful days at the Ilkeston College of Further Education Drama Group. Some of the anecdotes are much too naughty for this bulletin, but were well received by his audience. After all, entertainment is Bill’s business and doesn’t he do it well! Thank you, Bill. Heartfelt thanks must go to my good friend, (assistant in all technical matters) and fellow writer Allan Morton. For years, Allan has played an important part in bringing to life these newsletters by proofreading, assisting with imaginative illustrations, slide shows and posting to my website and beyond. Allan has worked hard as a publicist promoting all my efforts including the novels which carry an important LGBT message. From my husband Terry, and all who read my words, we wish you a Merry Christmas and a very Happy 2025. Narvel Annable  Guess Who’s Coming to Dinner 1967
I’ve often made comparisons and contrasts between racial prejudice and homophobia. When attractive white girl, Joey, introduced her black beau to her white parents, it was immediately clear that John was a Negro - as he would have been politely described in 1967. Had John been a homosexual, that could be masked by his silence on the subject. To this day, many gay men choose to hide their sexuality because of ingrained prejudice. Distinguished black doctor, John Prentice [Sidney Poitier] is a brilliant research physician who meets and falls in love with Joanna Drayton – ‘Joey’ [Katharine Houghton]. Her father, Matthew Drayton ‘Matt’ [Spencer Tracey] is an enlightened, successful crusading publisher. She assures her new fiancé that mixed marriage will be totally acceptable in the Drayton home. Matt’s initial opposition causes much soul searching and social turmoil. Eventually, Mr Prentice [Roy E Glenn Sr] and Mrs Prentice [Beah Richards] meet the Draytons and discuss the racial issues – which were considerable and fraught with emotion in the 1960s. Christina Drayton [Katharine Hepburn] and Mrs Prentice find they agree in favour of the proposed marriage. On the other hand, Matt and Mr Prentice are both opposed. In a heated exchange, Mr Prentice vehemently attacks his son for aspiring to marry a white girl. ‘Ya don’t know what ya doin! Yad be breakin the law in some states. And supposing they change the law – that don’t change what folks think.’ In a rage, John fires back – ‘You think of yourself as a lowly coloured man. I think of myself - as a man!’ Tillie [Isabel Sanford] is the feisty and primitive black maid of many years service and considered to be a member of the Drayton family. Alas, she insults, abuses and threatens Dr Prentice - ‘You are one of those smooth talking, smart-ass niggers!’ She complains to Joey – ‘He calls himself Dr Prentice! Just don’t like one of my race getting above himself.’ Tillie also complains to Matt Drayton – ‘In this house, all hell done broke loose!’ Matt Drayton admits he is shocked by Joey’s intention to marry a Negro. His best friend of 30 years, Monsignor Ryan – ‘Mike’ [Cecil Kelloway] says - ‘I’m not shocked. I’ve come across many interracial marriages in my time. Strangely enough, they usually work out quite well. Perhaps it’s because they need to make a special effort to stay together.’ Matt responds – ‘I happen to know that they haven’t a cat-in-hells chance in this rotten stinking world.’ Mike responds – ‘Committed couples like John and Joey will change this rotten stinking world. Those two good people make me feel extraordinarily happy!’ As a gay man who has spent his life combatting ignorance, bigotry and gay hate - this excellent film resonates in so many ways. Narvel Annable  Due to the tsunami of health issues which have crippled the smooth running of our home during the last six months, the Belper Friends gay support group is now only a shadow of its former self.
Since May, several meetings have been cancelled because Terry was in hospital or simply unable to cope with stress of welcoming our loyal guests. We are in decline and seriously forgetful. The house is full of notes to tell us what needs to be done this week, days of putting bins out, medical appointments – everything has to be notated even showers and bowel movements. Terry has breathing problems from scarred lungs resulting from a lifetime of working in attics infested with fibreglass particles. He is now 85, has Alzheimer’s, cancer and heart complications sometimes getting into a muddle with medications. However, we try to keep cheerful and were glad to host a modest gathering of the loyal few on November 13th. The days of ‘just turn up’ are now over - yielding to ‘invitation only’. Our meeting was a success and Terry fed the few with his usual excellent sandwiches. Alan, David, John and James greatly helped bringing their own generous contributions to the feast. Having viewed a multitude of impressive Facebook photographs of Scotland in my inbox, I was surprised to see John [not his real name] at our door. During the last few years, John has enjoyed frequent holidays in that wild and craggy northern landscape. He spoke of adventures meeting new people exploring gay venues - even a Celtic version of Belper Friends! John’s talk was entertaining, interesting and amusing. All the more appreciated considering a life blighted by ignorance and homophobia. Over the last 20 years, John has suffered appalling cruelty from hateful bigotry. He learned of the death of his long-term partner by overhearing a conversation in his local pub. Being slightly autistic and socially isolated – nobody told him! He has been forced out of his home several times. During covid, a gay hating neighbour made his life so unbearable that John reluctantly accepted help from the local Hate Crime Police Officer who interviewed the perpetrator under caution. All being well, Belper Friends will gather for our Christmas Party on December 11th. Narvel Annable Murder Most Foul is the third of four Miss Marple films based on Agatha Christie’s Mrs McGinty’s Dead.  Constantly homesick during 13 years of living in Detroit, I have a special fondness for Margaret Rutherford - a quaint, quintessentially whimsical and very English character actor.
Thrilled to be returning to Derbyshire on an extended holiday, I saw this entertaining movie aboard the Empress of England bound for Liverpool in 1965. Many scenes and dialogue resonated during that viewing. It opens in an old-fashioned musty provincial Crown Court with a miserable looking ‘Prisoner at the Bar’ charged with the murder of Mrs McGinty. The evidence against him is overwhelming. ‘Caught red-handed’ comments one of the jurors. An intimidating stern judge of grim countenance is summing up for a conviction – black cap at the ready. His concentration is disrupted by an irritating clicking noise just below him. One of the jurors, Miss Marple, is knitting. ‘Madam, either you will have to cease knitting, or I will have to cease judging! Which shall it be?’ ‘I’m sorry, My Lord; it helps me to concentrate.’ ‘It does not help me, Madam!’ Deliberation in the jury room takes much longer than expected. Eventually, we learn that a verdict could not be reached. Alone, Miss Marple was adamant in the defendant’s innocence. After dismissal, the frustrated Police Inspector complained – ‘If ever there was an open and shut case, this was it. One member of that jury was being perverse!’ Miss Marple responded – ‘Many more than one, I assure you, Inspector; Eleven, to be precise.’ In an attempt to uncover the real murderer, Miss Marple’s investigations lead her to join a floundering theatrical troupe including a dangerous killer. Along the way she has to negotiate red herrings and various motives lurking amidst her fellow actors who are consumed with distrust, jealousy and spite. Starved of all things English, after living in the USA, I was emotionally affected by being reacquainted with half-forgotten images from my past. Most notable were much admired cars parked outside the Crown Court. Greatly desired in my early teenage years were the Ford Zepher, the Ford Zodiac and the Vauxhall Cresta. We also saw a shop window displaying early 1960s state-of-the-art televisions and radiograms – items completely out of reach in coal mining villages such as Stanley Common. This thoroughly enjoyable amusing star-studded vintage who-done-it, never fails to fascinate I have seen many times and will continue to see it many times in the future. Narvel Annable  Shelagh Delaney was criticised for the ‘unsatisfactory’ ending of A Taste of Honey. It was seen to be both sad and, somehow, incomplete.
She argued that it simply reflected real life which does not always turn out as we would wish. She told people not to worry about Geoffrey - the gentle and kind homosexual who, in the final minutes of the film, was turned out of his home with nowhere to live. ‘Geoffrey will be OK.’ In composing Secret Summer which is about my great love, I was faced with the same problem of how to conclude my novel. If readers want a happy ending, where should the story end? Along the continuum of life, there are days when we are happy and days when we are not. Real life is like that. And all my titles are about real life and real people within the LGBT community. On the last page of Secret Summer, I address my readers directly. My boyfriend and I would have preferred to be ‘strangers in paradise’- lovers who meet in a lovely garden, under the whispering leaves of a mulberry tree, as did the Caliph and his true love in Kismet. Alas, we met in the orgy room of a gay bathhouse - but that did not make my great love any the less great or less fulfilling. Many gay men of my generation met in a urinal. This does not diminish a life changing, profound relationship. Real life is like that. Under pressure from well-meaning friends, I contrived that the lovers in my book were ecstatically happy on an evening of blissful reconciliation and delightful reunion against a backdrop of magnificent sunset of brilliant red, purple and gold. It was cold, but they cuddled together to keep warm. It made an all-important physical connection which continued to weave its magical spell – continued to keep them together. I resisted the temptation to reach for the traditional ending to a fairytale love story. The old cliché - and they lived happily ever after - would have to be implied rather than spoken, if I was to be completely honest. Narvel Annable  Hello Readers
I’ve received a strong response to my dementia letter recently printed in five local papers - Derby Telegraph - Nottingham Post - Worksop Guardian - Derbyshire Times - and Ilkeston Life Please look in the LETTERS section on this website. One gay man in particular gave a harrowing account - ‘Forgetfulness happens when you reach a certain age. ‘I went to the Goose Fair. Watching the time, I thought I’d better catch the 10:30pm bus back home. It was Friday and I wouldn't be able to use my bus pass after that time. ‘Chatting to another passenger at the bus stop, I discovered that my bus would not arrive until 11.25. The reason - it was not Friday – it was Saturday! ‘What caused that lapse of memory? God knows. But that is what actually happened. ‘It was particularly frightening because I live on my own. I do stupid things like leaving the gas on in the kitchen. ‘I could end up as a gas casualty - or blow the house up - if I forgot! ‘The other week, I woke up at 3am and smelled burning permeating the house. The enamel was burned off the saucepan which I had put on a low light at 9pm. The peas were like black charred bullets!’ This is indeed alarming! In a recent email, Peter Tatchell told us that LGBTs are at a higher risk of dementia and depression than their heterosexual peers. Researchers found a 14% increased risk of being diagnosed with dementia and a 27% higher risk of depression in later life. This study blames a variety of contributions including the constant stress of homosexuals hiding their secret lives from friends and relatives. The unfortunate single man above suffers the double whammy of being gay together with living alone in isolation. I’ve been with my husband Terry for the last 48 years. We bounce off each other and constantly check on each other in a supportive relationship. Terry has Alzheimer’s and I’m his carer. I’m very concerned about all elderly LGBTs who live alone. Narvel Annable Hello Readers,
I was very moved by a Facebook item from my Facebook Friend Peter Burnham. I’ve been anxious about memory problems since my husband Terry received a formal diagnosis of Alzheimer’s disease in June. Terry and I are in decline. I’m seriously forgetful. The house is full of notes to tell us what needs to be done each week - days of putting bins out, medical appointments – everything has to be notated even showers and bowel movements. 2025 will be my 80th year when Terry turns 86. Peter began his piece by saying - It’s cruel and sad to see this happening to your loved one. ʀᴏʙɪɴ ᴡɪʟʟɪᴀᴍs ᴛᴏᴏᴋ ʜɪs ᴏᴡɴ ʟɪғᴇ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ ʜᴇ ᴡᴀs ᴅɪᴀɢɴᴏsᴇᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʟᴇᴡʏ ʙᴏᴅʏ ᴅᴇᴍᴇɴᴛɪᴀ. ʙʀᴜᴄᴇ ᴡɪʟʟɪs ᴊᴜsᴛ ʟᴇᴀʀɴᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʜɪs ɪʟʟɴᴇss ɪs ғʀᴏɴᴛᴏᴛᴇᴍᴘᴏʀᴀʟ ᴅᴇᴍᴇɴᴛɪᴀ (ғᴛᴅ) ᴀɴᴅ ʟᴇᴡʏ ʙᴏᴅʏ ᴅᴇᴍᴇɴᴛɪᴀ. ᴏɴᴇ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴀʀᴅᴇsᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ᴛᴏ ᴘʀᴏᴄᴇss ɪs ᴛʜᴇ sʟᴏᴡ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴠᴇ. ʙᴇᴄᴏᴍɪɴɢ ᴀ ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇʟʏ ᴅɪғғᴇʀᴇɴᴛ ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴ. ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇs. ᴊᴜsᴛ sᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴋɴᴏᴡ... ɪᴛ’s ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴏɴɢ ɢᴏᴏᴅʙʏᴇ. ʀᴀᴘɪᴅʟʏ sʜʀɪɴᴋɪɴɢ ʙʀᴀɪɴ ɪs ʜᴏᴡ ᴀ ᴅᴏᴄᴛᴏʀ ᴅᴇsᴄʀɪʙᴇᴅ ɪᴛ. ᴀs ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀᴛɪᴇɴᴛ's ʙʀᴀɪɴ sʟᴏᴡʟʏ ᴅɪᴇs, ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴘʜʏsɪᴄᴀʟʟʏ ᴀɴᴅ ᴇᴠᴇɴᴛᴜᴀʟʟʏ ғᴏʀɢᴇᴛ ᴡʜᴏ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ᴏɴᴇs ᴀʀᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ʙᴇᴄᴏᴍᴇ ʟᴇss ᴛʜᴇᴍsᴇʟᴠᴇs. ᴘᴀᴛɪᴇɴᴛs ᴄᴀɴ ᴇᴠᴇɴᴛᴜᴀʟʟʏ ʙᴇᴄᴏᴍᴇ ʙᴇᴅʀɪᴅᴅᴇɴ, ᴜɴᴀʙʟᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴏᴠᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴜɴᴀʙʟᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴇᴀᴛ ᴏʀ ᴅʀɪɴᴋ ᴏʀ ᴛᴀʟᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ᴏɴᴇs. ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ᴡɪʟʟ ʙᴇ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ᴡɪʟʟ sᴄʀᴏʟʟ ʙʏ ᴛʜɪs ᴍᴇssᴀɢᴇ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜsᴇ ᴀʟᴢʜᴇɪᴍᴇʀ's ᴏʀ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ғᴏʀᴍs ᴏғ ᴅᴇᴍᴇɴᴛɪᴀ ʜᴀs ɴᴏᴛ ᴛᴏᴜᴄʜᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇᴍ. ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴍᴀʏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪᴛ's ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛᴏ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʜᴀs ғᴏᴜɢʜᴛ ᴏʀ ɪs ғɪɢʜᴛɪɴɢ ᴀ ʙᴀᴛᴛʟᴇ ᴀɢᴀɪɴsᴛ ᴀʟᴢʜᴇɪᴍᴇʀ's ᴏʀ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴋɪɴᴅs ᴏғ ᴅᴇᴍᴇɴᴛɪᴀ (ᴛʜᴇ ᴜᴍʙʀᴇʟʟᴀ ᴛᴇʀᴍ ғᴏʀ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀɴ 𝟸𝟶𝟶 ᴅɪғғᴇʀᴇɴᴛ ᴛʏᴘᴇs). The NHS website provides more information about this cruel disease: https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/alzheimers-disease/www.nhs.uk/conditions/alzheimers-disease/ Belper Friends Bulletin for September 11th 2024. It nearly didn’t happen! Coming to terms with Terry’s dementia and his multiple health issues have left us exhausted and fragile after months of constant anxiety including frequent hospital visits. Terry was cheered and benefited from an extremely useful and enjoyable meeting with Iain, James, Alan, David and PC Fred Bray the Father of Belper Friends - to whom we owe so much. Back in February, Belper Friends closed ranks and agreed that ‘small was cosy’ and accepted my reluctance to canvas for new members. We just wanted to welcome our faithful few by invitation only. As usual, they all brought something nice to eat and Terry made his delicious sandwiches. We thank Iain for taking the photographs and Allan Morton for his splendid ongoing technical contributions. My former pupil, resident poet and drummer, Tim Blades, sent his apologies to this meeting for today's gathering due to getting various things done. I’m delighted he is now doing a Full Time Degree in 'Creative Writing' at Nottingham Trent University. Tim sends his love and best wishes to all fellow BF attendees. In any support group of older men, it is inevitable that life and death can enter the conversation which brings us to our loyal INVISIBLES who are always with us in spirit - if not in the flesh. Like Terry and myself, the INVISIBLES are vehemently opposed to traditional religious funerals and hostile homophobic relatives who, after a death, would aggressively present themselves at our door concerned by such irrelevances as choice of hymns, scattering of ashes etc. In a recent exchange of emails with our unseen friends, I described my horror of confrontation with such gay hating types haranguing me at my door should I survive Terry. In grief, we are ill-equipped to deal with such a nightmare. However, I danced with joy when enlightened by a few MAGIC WORDS which are on the very first line of the Will of the wonderful INVISIBLES. It clearly states - I desire that my body be cremated by direct cremation without ceremony This way, there are NO ARGUMENTS from hostile traditionalists who, if they could, would impose a canting clergyman droning along with miserable music from a church organ. This can’t happen when the deceased person’s wishes are clearly stated in black and white. On a more cheerful note, I shared a recent success with our Belper Friends group. Being anxious about memory problems since Terry received a formal diagnosis of Alzheimer’s disease, we attended sessions at Dovedale Day Hospital in Derby to help us living with dementia. I wrote a letter to several newspapers and was thrilled when they were all printed in full! The Derby Telegraph printed it on August 28th under the heading of - Colleague’s advice has helped with being gay The Nottingham Post on August 30th Cherished keepsake unearthed secret life The Worksop Guardian on September 6th Memories of 1961 The September edition of Ilkeston Life. Disapproval felt at dementia meeting My piece ended with sage advice from a good friend who was known as Dolly in the secretive gay community. ‘You have a lot to learn, young man,’ cautioned Dolly. ‘We queers are all born criminals into a hostile world where the majority hate us. We are constantly stressed by always having to hide our true selves; many of us are tainted with mental quirks and dysfunctionality. Think yourself fortunate that you’ll always be able to pass as a well-adjusted heterosexual. Click on the link below to see the letter https://narvel-annable.weebly.com/letters.html All being well, Belper Friends will meet again on Wednesday, November 13th Warm wishes, Narvel  I’ve been anxious about memory problems since my husband Terry Durand received a formal diagnosis of Alzheimer’s disease in June 2024.
We were invited to attended five informative sessions at Dovedale Day Hospital, London Road in Derby. Each week a different theme was presented to help us living with dementia. One meeting in particular resonated with my early personal experience as a gay man. Evidence suggests that experiences between the ages of 10 and 30 sticks with us right up to old age. This phenomenon is called the ‘memory bump’. 2025 will be my 80th year when Terry turns 86. We heard that a certain stimulus might untap a feeling, time or smell that went along with it. Feel-good hormones called endorphins can be triggered which may ease depression and anxiety. This also helps us to connect with the past by evoking memories and emotions. People spoke of music, photographs, familiar places, scents, tastes and keepsakes. We were asked to produce any personal item which was special or precious. My offering was a key-ring handmade for me in 1961 when I was sixteen. As a craft apprentice in Spondon Power Station, I became friendly with a small fat man called John who was especially sympathetic. In the Instrument Department, he stamped out NARVEL on an identity disc attached to my key-ring. I have kept it with me all these 63 years. The group leader encouraged me to develop my affection for John. In contrast to the other rough workmen, he spoke with beautifully rounded vowels in a soft sighing voice. There was something comfortable and old fashioned about this pleasant little rotundity who was known as Dolly in the gay community. I sensed disapproval in this small audience of older heterosexuals as I tried to explain the intense anonymity of men who hid behind a nickname like other LGBTs in the 1960s. Above all, they were vague and secretive. Dolly had perfected a system of disinformation, misdirection, deception and sleight of hand to create an impenetrable wall of secrecy around himself. His protection, guidance and good advice still improves the quality of my life to this very day. ‘You have a lot to learn, young man,’ cautioned Dolly. ‘We queers are all born criminals into a hostile world where the majority hate us. We are constantly stressed by always having to hide our true selves; many of us are tainted with mental quirks and dysfunctionality. Think yourself fortunate that you’ll always be able to pass as a well-adjusted heterosexual.’ Narvel Annable Yesterday's Pride in Belper was another great success, thank you to Sarah HK Barley-McMullen and team for making this happen. Below are a few photos of Narvel and friends from the day. There is also a link to a live video stream that captures the procession as it marches up through King Street: https://www.facebook.com/share/v/45k2wxom7hujpJ1V/?mibextid=WC7FNe  My good friend Allan Morton recently gave me the sad news of the passing of Steve Hanson aka Ruby. We both share happy memories of Steve at the Green Lane Gallery pub in Derby, and for myself, subsequent reunions at the Crown. Steve was a loyal reader and became a special friend especially after he read Scruffy Chicken. We discovered an enjoyable common remembrance of Paul Sharpley aka Mr Toad the colourful and entertaining Music Master at Clarendon College where Steve was a student in 1970s Nottingham. Many of the gay community in Derby will remember and miss Steve Hanson - a welcoming and friendly host at the Green Lane Gallery. Today, we are all a little poorer. Good night, dear friend. Narvel Annable Ruby / Steve's funeral will be held on the 15th of July at Marketon Crematorium, at 1.30pm in the larger chapel. His family say that all are very welcome to attend the service and join afterwards in the The Crown Inn Derby, where he spent many happy hours. They state no flowers please, but instead donations to Marie Curie or Treetops who were such a support to Ruby in his illness.  I taught as I was taught in the 1950s. Mr Annable was too strict, too formal, too unwilling to modernise and embrace child-centred trends in the 1980s. This mindset was a cloak to conceal the continuing anxiety of leading a double life. Inside, I was a frightened homosexual trying to look like a confident heterosexual on the outside. A stern schoolmaster was sabotaging my efforts to look human and come across as an effective educator. On one special occasion, a magic moment, I actually achieved a breakthrough and enjoyed a friendly, meaningful relationship with a group of pupils. Not an easy group! They were boisterous. They were a bunch of ruffians with an appalling reputation throughout the school. Some staff referred to Ronnie, Bobbie and Freddie as ‘challenging behaviour’. Hard-nosed traditionalists abused them with loutish language and occasional violence to keep order and impose discipline. This gang of three, by popularity and sheer force of personality, imposed on the rest of the class an influence which could make life very difficult for a teacher who took his work seriously. On one occasion, after an onerous hour, I dismissed the class but detained the terrible trio. They were ordered to remain behind, explain their disruptive attitude and suffer a reprimand. I had little confidence in his strategy - but it was worth a try. Looking back, I tried to reconstruct this extraordinary conference of four and locate the exact point when everything changed between the teacher and his charges. It happened during a moment when my criticism of Ronnie was interrupted by an effective heartfelt defence from his number two – Bobbie. Despite limited articulation, Bobbie managed to paint a picture of his best friend who was experiencing all the stresses and chaotic adolescent miseries which could have been a 14-year-old Narvel. The atmosphere of this coerced punishment suddenly transformed into a voluntary and valuable meeting between four equals. It was a magical moment, a sudden switch from monochrome into glorious Technicolor where three boys wanted to stay and further explain their lives to an adult who was now more counsellor than schoolmaster. Make no mistake, it was a dodgy situation for me hearing confidential information about colleagues verging on ‘unprofessional conduct’. I heard distressing details of their home life. A sympathetic ear encouraged further trust to the point that my status as teacher had morphed into the confidentiality of the confessional. Now treated like a newly acquired friend, I was begged to guard the secrets which had been entrusted to me for safe keeping. Although the boys hid behind a veneer of defiant swagger, their new confidant concluded that there was indeed a case to answer. They were victims of an insensitive system all too willing to exploit youths from a deprived background and give three dogs a bad name. Bobbie said, ‘I can’t help the way I speak, sir. It’s me voice, it irritates folk. It’s not my fault, sir. Honest!’ I had always been annoyed by a certain element of insolence in the utterances delivered by Bobbie. There was a sardonic tone which challenged authority and continued to chafe. Notwithstanding, I accepted that the pupil’s lilt of speech was natural, a part of Bobbie’s personality. It was not intentionally disrespectful. The new friendship was affirmed, enjoyed by all four. It reduced the stress of teaching in that particular class and, by osmosis; improved my standing in the whole of that 4th Year. This magical moment which occurred at Worksop’s Valley Comprehensive is detailed in my novel Double Life. Narvel Annable Hello Readers, Deep into the Covid-19 pandemic lockdown of May 2020, Narvel recorded a Desert Island Discs style piece, in which he discussed various records that meant a lot to him in his life. This was interwoven with interesting, heart-felt stories from those times. You can listen to this by clicking anywhere on the image below:  An old man suddenly broke down with uncontrollable weeping – piteous overmastering grief – a kind of hopelessness.
He was mourning the death of a close friend and tried to explain his emotional outburst. ‘I’m so sorry! Please forgive me. It just came over me – what I’ve lost. He was the only link with the past.’ That tragic incident inspired me to embark on a nostalgic walk through the pit village of my birth – Stanley Common, near Ilkeston. It was a sad progress, reminding me of that poor man’s heartbreaking distress because we are quite alone when the last one who remembers is gone. There was nothing sad about the weather. It was wall to wall sunshine as I passed many small terraced colliery cottages chronicling my teenage years in the 1950s and 1960s. Stanley Common is a linear village of gentle accent from east to west, from bottom up to the area known as ‘top common’ at Tansley Avenue. Some rows of tiny humble homes take their name from the original coal owners who built them for the miners. Lowes Row on the south side is the onetime home of Aunty Olive Patrick. Olive looked after me like a mother during the first years of my life. Her sister, Aunty Mable and Uncle Arthur Clifton lived a few doors up. They had four boys, my cousin Ken, Gordon, Keith and Brian Clifton who died at the age of 90 in 2023. One sister, Lorraine, a year or so younger than myself, died this year which is my 79th. Except for me – all gone! The shadow of homophobia has weakened my fragile link with all relatives for more than half a century. Arthur’s sister, my mother Connie, was born in a tiny cottage in 1911 on Brown’s Row facing Lowes Row. Progressing further up Belper Road, we pass the old football ground [the rec] where Common Lane on the left [south side] meets the main road. On that corner, I remember an ancient crumbling old house which was demolished in 1958 to make space for the newly built Stanley Common Miners Welfare. The Land Lord and Land Lady where Jack and Olive Patrick. Sadly, the two sisters Olive and Mable were not on good terms. I recall Olive’s first attempt at darts – ‘I wasn’t keen, but they persuaded me. It was a high score when I threw! They all clapped. And our Mable sat there with a face as long as a fiddle!’ The ongoing feud was especially upsetting to me. These two ladies were more like second mothers than aunts. 1959 saw me a frustrated, deeply repressed 14-year-old. We had a shy and gentle postmaster called Jack Carrier. One day he was there - the next day he was gone! ‘What’s happened to him?’ I asked mother. ‘That one! Huh! Good riddance,’ she snapped. ‘He was one of those funny sorts. No good to any woman,’ she growled. ‘Well, Connie, he was always nicely spoken and polite to me,’ sniffed Aunty Mable, taking another swig of tea. The effect on me was the same as the effect on hundreds of thousands like me. I hid inside of myself. I became withdrawn and tried to pretend to desire girls. I drifted into a secret world of fear and insecurity. Mable Clifton’s kind and generous tolerant words meant everything to me on that day 65 years ago. The Miners Welfare, gleaming new and so proud, endured for decades of happy memories. Eventually, it was demolished and swept away to make room for new houses. All Stanley Common relatives I knew have now passed on. It started with an old man who broke down in tears mourning the past; like him, I too feel like the only one who remembers those long-gone good people. Narvel Annable Narvel was filmed talking about his life in Stanley Common in April, 2015. The original sound was enhanced a few years ago due to the traffic and wind noise on the day. This short film can be viewed on Narvel's YouTube channel below. Narvel's Secret Derbyshire - Stanley Common Narvel’s Books Part 9 Miss Calder’s Children 1997 A Social History of Belper and Biography  The above photograph supported a 1997 review in the Derbyshire Times to launch Miss Calder’s Children. Ninety-year-old Bess West is on the left with young Sarah on the right, playing the part of young Bess, as a pupil writing on her slate at Bridge House School in 1917. Born in 1907, Bess Neaum was the chief witness and treasure trove of information which made this biography possible. She lived with Miss Florence Calder and her sisters up to her 18th year in 1925. ‘They took possession of me and were always very kind.’ Bess looked upon Florence as a second mother. I recall the word godmother used. In this situation, away from parents, I can claim some empathy with Bess. For the first few years of my life, I lived with my Aunty Olive Patrick in Stanley Common, 1945 to approximately 1948 with no memory of mother, father or sisters. During long interviews during 1995 and 1996, Bess and I felt there was a secret subtext to our conversations. We were clearly kindred spirits. Tightly locked in my closet, the subject of homosexuality never reared its embarrassing head. However, Bess was keen to give me details of the little-known private relationship between Florence Calder and Mrs Mary Strutt the wife of George Herbert Strutt. At first, Florence was appointed as a governess to the Strutt’s children. During this time the friendship between the two ladies deepened against a luxurious privileged backdrop of Edwardian Britain. Florence and Mary would cruise on the Strutt’s private steam yacht ‘Sandra’ sailing between the mainland and Kingairlock in Scotland. As the years passed by, Florence was promoted to ‘companion’ and personal friend to Mary Strutt. They were inseparable. Mary was a keen golfer and paid for professional tuition to enable her dear friend to become just as accomplished extending their activities to include music and dancing. Happy days passed as they travelled and became more adventurous. The status of Florence Calder was at its pinnacle when something happened to cause a catastrophic fall! That catastrophe was never explained to me by Bess. An instinct told me not to ask questions. In the text of my biography, I smoothed over the abrupt demotion of Florence the millionaire world traveller, down to simply Miss Calder - spinster schoolmistress at Bridge House School in Belper. She became just an ordinary teacher, living and working next to her other sisters. Bess knew more, but protected her godmother taking that knowledge to her grave. Fast forward to 1949 and find just one surviving sister at the ivy clad school with its beautifully maintained garden under the shade of the venerable old plane tree with its massive trunk. I encountered that sole survivor when, at the age of four, little Narvel became a pupil of Miss Calder who was 73. I’ve graduated from writing on slates at that Victorian dame school to typing on my 2024 computer – six years older than the dame whose face was a frightening mass of wrinkles. She was strict, but I remember her clearly with affection and gratitude. Narvel Annable Here is Allan Morton’s review of my first book, Miss Calder’s Children, published in 1997. Copies of the book are now scarce, but do they occasionally crop up on eBay. The ISBN is 0 9530419 0 5 if that may also be of help. A Review of Miss Calder’s Children ‘A personal story of one successful woman, interwoven with the failings of 20th century education’.  Narvel has excellently crafted together a very interesting and readable book here, and I found it hard to put it down once I got started. Narvel’s introduction states: ‘The following is a fusion of a biography of a school teacher, a social history of Belper and a critique on modern education. I will set out to show that the life and times of Miss Florence Calder is an ideal from the past which should and could be bought to the present for the benefit of the future’. Miss Calder’s Children was Narvel’s first publication from some 23 years ago, and it was clearly a labour of love for him to meticulously piece together all this information and to also mix in his own, sometimes very forthright opinions. This, together with the stories he gathered from various people as part of his research, will not only be preserved forever, but will serve as an education for people like myself. I worked in Belper’s East Mill for around 12 years without any knowledge of the old Bridge House School or the ancient tree that once stood adjacent to it. The chapter entitled Plane Tree, is all about that very tree that grew beside the Bridge House School, and how it witnessed many changes to Belper over the years. This whole chapter is up there amongst the best descriptive pieces I have read by Narvel, and it leaves the reader in no doubt of his rooted passions. He is most definitely on the side of those ancient dryad wood spirits. As with his other books, his portrayal of people, the depth of his characters, really makes you feel you know them. This is similarly the case here. The way he describes Miss Calder, about how she demanded respect and discipline, really made me feel I was experiencing the revered teacher first-hand. Other things worthy of a mention, include the scary BIG DADDY inscribed paddle he says he used for disciplining students in his Detroit teaching days. He makes clear that it was an unpleasant experience, that disturbed him as much as the transgressor! Another alarming experience, albeit years earlier, was to have been subject to Miss Calder’s menacing spider! This struck fear into already frightened pupils, as it dangled threateningly above their heads if they were made to stand against the wall, in the corner where it lived! I was also shocked to read about the author’s near-severed tongue too! As a young child still, at the Bridge House School, he once tripped and fell in his garden, cutting his tongue in half in all the excitement of running to see his friend’s sherbet mixture that had miraculously changed colour! I recently asked Narvel about this unsettling revelation, and if there was still any lasting damage all these years later. ‘My tongue still shows a cleft from that early accident. It took many months to heal – but it did eventually heal. In stark contrast, a lifetime later, the Mundy Street horrors still haunt me with flashbacks and occasional depression. Those emotional injuries have never healed’ There is so much more to the book that I could write about, but I hope you are able to secure your own copy to experience this wonderful work yourselves. One day soon I intend to see if the stamp dispensing machine is still there outside the old Bridge Street Post Office, that he mentions gave him great fascination as a child. After reading Miss Calder’s Children there is one thing for sure, and that is how differently I will now view the whole Bridgefoot and Triangle area of Belper in a totally different light. Allan Morton, July 2020.  ITV’s REAL CRIME series Love You To Death Narvel Annable has a speaking part on the set of ITV’s REAL CRIME series Love You To Death first shown on January 26th 2004. In this two-minute YouTube film, cleverly created by Allan Morton, you can see the actor Noah Huntley rehearsing with Narvel and His Honour Judge Keith Matthewman QC inside the original courtroom of the Galleries of Justice. You might also spot Terry Durand, Ken Varnum [Nobby the Gnome] and some friends who helped to make up the jury. https://youtu.be/xxDXjrPUDaw?si=335ZiNjg1fnSWHa1  Narvel’s Books Part 8 A Judge Too Far His Honour Judge Keith Matthewman QC [1936-2008] of the Nottingham Crown Court Memory problems are the penalty of advancing years. Accordingly, it is a treasure to have a younger friend who has closely followed my writing career. Good friend Allan Morton’s head has become a mine of information no longer available in my own head. He is now a valuable repository of data. Announcing my intention of featuring A Judge Too Far in a future post, Allan told me he had reviewed the book two years ago! Two years back is a dead zone in my memory bank – but I have total recall of teenage days sixty years past. Reading Allan’s review of A Judge Too Far was like reading it for the first time. I was very impressed, moved and deeply grateful for this carefully crafted piece. The review, together with listening to the 27- minute Radio Derby broadcast of Keith, John Holmes and myself - had the effect of rekindling my affection for Keith. I’m glad of this. The passage of time since his death in 2008 has somehow hardened my heart towards this man of many qualities. Allan’s kindness and generosity have softened that view. Narvel Annable Review of A Judge Too Far Narvel’s A Judge Too Far was the only book of his that I had not read. This was partly due to it being quite scarce and only available second hand online, but also the fact that Narvel has always claimed this was the worst book he had ever written – hardly encouragement for me to invest my time reading it! However, despite this I did obtain a copy and was quite pleasantly surprised. Here is my review. The striking red cover and photo of a stern looking Judge Keith Matthewman QC perhaps sets a bit of a serious tone about the book. The back cover offers a lighter mood though, thanks to a tête-à-tête photo of the judge sat opposite a smiling Mr Annable himself. The story covers the life of Keith Matthewman, from his early days as a salesman and a teacher, through to being a left-wing socialist offered a position as a Labour MP, to becoming a well-respected judge at Nottingham Crown Court. It might seem strange that Narvel should choose a judge as a subject to write about. I mean, what could they possibly have in common, if anything? The answer is that Narvel was a former pupil of the William Howitt Secondary Modern School in Heanor in the late 1950s. On one occasion there, Keith Matthewman gave a memorable lesson on medieval and Victorian morality, which Narvel remembered so vividly. This prompted Narvel, nearly four decades later, to write to Keith seeking permission to describe and publish the notable occasion, from when Narvel ‘first came before him’ in that lesson. “I don’t remember the lesson, but don’t deny it!” was the reply, together with an invitation for Narvel to telephone him to discuss the matter more fully, eventually resulting in this biography. Narvel clearly shared the same sentiments as Keith, with his frustrations of the modern ‘can’t touch me’ attitude and lack of respect in society. Narvel blames this on ‘soft’ teaching methods and the lack of standards that he himself experienced in the classroom as a teacher. The book has two Forewords, both from high-ranking former Labour MP’s. These are Geoff Hoon and Willy Bach, such was the respect and high esteem in which Keith Matthewman was held. In the book, Keith was referred to as a ‘judge of the old school’ and of common sense, which society still continues to suffer the lack of to this day. Ludicrous stories of injustice and too lenient jail sentences ensue. They said Keith’s comments always ‘shone out like a beacon of common sense’, and that he ‘spoke for the common man’ by ‘providing a great service by his no-nonsense approach’. Keith certainly put in countless hours of case preparations, where quite often tough decisions had to be made that could affect a person’s life. Numerous photos, letters and newspaper clippings are skilfully interwoven in the book, giving a real feel for the stories and ability to picture the people in this life. A Judge Too Far was published in 2001 and was Narvel’s fourth book, following on from his novel Death on the Derwent in 1999. A Judge Too Far is also the last book before Lost Lad, the book in which Narvel bravely no longer hides his same sex attraction by portraying himself as the character, Simeon. From that point on, Narvel’s novels were disguised biographies of his life. I was delighted to see that A Judge Too Far was dedicated to Paul Sharpley, aka ‘Mr Toad’ from his novels. The dedication reads ‘for enthusiastic encouragement together with inspiration and the laughs, especially the laughs, down the long journey of our friendship – albeit a bumpy ride!” Well, I can imagine it would have been a bumpy ride if he really did drive around in an old bubble car! Page 8 includes an interesting map he has titled ‘Keith Matthewman Country’. This shows an area from Belper, right over to the Crown Court in Nottingham, where Keith was judge. This area features later in the book, where Narvel undertakes a bicycle ride from his house in Belper, to the Notts Forest City Ground. This was a route that took in the Nutbrook and Erewash Canals and Nottingham Castle. He was meeting an Ex Police Chief Superintendent for a research interview for the book. Also mentioned is the legendary BBC Radio Derby Football commentator, Graham Richards. Many Derby County fans grew up listening to Graham from the 1970s onwards waxing lyrical on the radio during football matches, often with his witty, opinionated views. He was never afraid to say what he thought. In the book he was referenced in his capacity as a District Judge and Barrister, obviously with a connection to Keith himself. A Judge Too Far was published in 2001, the same year that Judge Keith Matthewman QC retired. Sadly, it was only 7 years later that Keith passed away in 2008, aged just 72, and just 4 months after his wife Jane had also passed. Narvel said that “Keith adored Jane. He was grief stricken after her death. That loss hastened his own demise only months later”. I mentioned at the start that Narvel regards this book as his least favourite. In an email to me from 2013, Narvel explains why he feels this way: “Of all my books, I rate A Judge Too Far at the bottom. This is because (to my utter frustration) he (Keith) insisted on editing out all negative references he didn’t like. That is clear to quite of few readers who have, quite rightly, criticised the biography. It is a hagiography, even though I said it was not a hagiography. In two years of my time, he wasted at least one year deleting hours of my most creative work”. I personally found A Judge Too Far an enjoyable read that contained several surprising references that were familiar to me in my own life. One example was Keith’s time at the Middle Temple in London. I once spent a lot of time in the library there, installing computers to take them into the 21st Century. I recalled the many portraits on the walls as mentioned in the book. Even the library itself was a very grand building. Before reading this book, I thought of judges as being very strict, stern individuals who were out of touch with society. This book has reshaped my opinion, allowing an insight to the interesting and thought-provoking life of this down-to-earth and highly esteemed individual. Allan Morton, October 2022.   Click below to hear to an archive BBC Radio Derby interview with Keith and Narvel discussing the book:
https://www.mixcloud.com/narvelontheradio/narvel-annable-a-judge-too-far-bbc-radio-derby/ Read the Nottingham Post review of A Judge Too Far from December 2001: https://www.dropbox.com/s/6w76aelgyky4m7j/Judge%20Too%20Far.jpg?st=vxsy6g86&dl=0www.dropbox.com/s/6w76aelgyky4m7j/Judge%20Too%20Far.jpg?st=vxsy6g86&dl=0 In the 1965 gay community, it was common knowledge that Brian Smedley was a Barrister. I met him frequently in several venues and drooled over his beautiful white Jaguar. He was a regular at our 'gentleman's club', the Derby Turkish Baths (cautiously signing in as 'Brian Jones') and was a prestigious dinner guest in the homes of senior members of both the Derby and Nottingham elite homosexuals. At the home of my architect friend, Eric Wrightam 1927-2018 – on one occasion, Brian was especially kind to me. In 1966, I’d just returned from Detroit in the aftermath of an intense love affair with a gorgeous young hunk in Secret Summer, called Ahmed. Brian noticed the intensity of infatuation which was causing great anxiety. In a tete-a-tete, he counselled good advice. ‘In our secret world of isolation and anonymity, you should put your job, your profession first. You talk about becoming a schoolmaster teaching history here in England. Well then, go to college and make it happen. If your American boyfriend truly loves you, he’ll come here and live with you.’ Brian Smedley and other gay men shared the life-long worry, the chronic horror of public disapproval should their promiscuous lifestyle ever come to light. In a world where gay sex was illegal, considered immoral - in the Derby / Nottingham professional classes - a pervasive terror of being outed as 'a queer' was all around – the air was thick with the threat of disgrace and ruination. It could be cut with a knife. The Nottingham Evening Post of April 16th 2007 carried a full-page feature tribute by Rebecca Sherdley about Sir Brian Smedley who had just died. The photograph showed the public face of a High Court Judge who sat in the Old Bailey, the respectable image of Brian Smedley, resplendent in his formal robes and full wig.  An higher resolution image of the above can be found below, this being Narvel's original Information Sheet No. 75 (please note some of the contact information on this is out of date): https://www.dropbox.com/s/qwnvs7zmri1e2i9/Info%20Sheet%2075.jpg?st=jlogcfrs&dl=0 But this one-time scruffy chicken who knew him 60 years ago, he sees behind the majesty of the law, he sees the sad eyes of a haunted man guarded and reserved. Note the last few words of this feature - ‘Sir Brian, who lived near Sittingbourne, Kent, leaves his partner, Peter.’ It was a coincidence to discover that my former acquaintance Brian Smedley and my former teacher Keith Matthewman 1936-2008 shared a close friendship which went right back to the early 1960s, to their early barrister days in Chambers at The Ropewalk in Nottingham. In the late 1990s, researching A Judge Too Far - A Biography of His Honour Judge Keith Matthewman QC of the Nottingham Crown Court, it was necessary to write my very first letter to Brian Smedley. Back in the homophobic dark ages, rough lads of my ilk were severely cautioned - nay threatened - never ever attempt a written communication which might eventually become useful to the police. In this innocent missive, a blast from the past, I politely asked Sir Brian if he would care to share any interesting / entertaining anecdotes regarding his friendship with Judge Matthewman. It seemed foolish to pretend that we were strangers, so, in the last paragraph, I touched on the fact that we had met and mentioned a few names including his old friend Eric Wrightam and the dinner parties. Sadly, I found his reply hurtful. It included a few useful references to his teaching days in Long Eaton and memories of his friendship with Keith and Jane Matthewman. But, at the end, his tone was stern and rather grand. Sir Brian Smedley, the High Court Judge of the Old Bailey informed me that I must be mistaken. He had no memory of a teenager called Annable or of any of the other people mentioned. Narvel Annable  The recent post about – angry young man and rebel writer Alan Sillitoe has a connection with Nobby the Gnome, an amusing character who appears in several of my novels. Like Alan, Nobby was a real person first encountered when I came across him sitting in the gardens of Nottingham Castle in 1965. He was in pensive mood on the slopes of that one-time medieval fortress when, in a pleasant moment of serendipity, I engaged him in conversation. For a while, we sat in contemplative silence surveying the southerly panorama of a mid-20th century city which had changed little in the previous 50 years. It was a comforting view for a homesick boy who had been isolated in Detroit. It was so English, so nostalgic. To the west, lay The Park. In the early 19th century, it was a real park. The view was a forest of Victorian roofs and smoking chimneys which fell away in serried ranks, nicely decorated by the occasional mature tree. To the south, was a vista of the meandering River Trent encircling the poorer rows of roofs in The Meadows. This picture, soothing and calming, was complemented with grime and grit. Beyond, moving east, was evidence of commerce, industry and pollution. A distant train whistled. It painfully puffed and clanked slowly over the Nottingham Canal, under Abbey Bridge and, eventually, out of sight and out of hearing. I savoured the quality this East Midland moment. Why quality? Some years later, feeling trapped and irritated in a Detroit traffic jam, I returned to that moment in an attempt to find calm. The ingredients constituted a zone of comfort which was so very nice. It had to be said; the scene before me was quite scruffy, so how did that add up to quality? Dirty scruffy kids were having a great time chasing each other around the flower beds, but the yells and squeals were no problem at all. On the contrary, they were a welcome part of the scene and added richness to the total picture. Nobby was a bedraggled rustic who had slowly struggled up the hill, thankfully, now resting his old bones on one of the benches. We sat together staring out across the plain seeing into infinity. The old and the young: that was the difference. In the murder capital of the USA, you seldom saw the old and the young. It was ill advised, too dangerous. Old folks stayed inside where it was safe. On a dull, grey day, I seemed to be seeing it all as if I were viewing a black and white film. And I wondered why? Then it came to me. I’d seen it before watching Saturday Night and Sunday Morning. Set in Nottingham, it portrayed the working-class heterosexual ‘kitchen sink’ existence of boozing, brawling and bedding - so graphically evoked by Alan Sillitoe. All this existed dangerously close for homosexuals. Perilously, they tried to make contact with their own kind as they struggled to snatch their own special pleasures in the big City of Nottingham. There were numerous undocumented casualties. And nobody knew this better than Nobby the Gnome who had the scars to prove it – physical and mental. Was he thinking of these perils now? In an attempt to read the old man’s thoughts, I studied his profile. Nobby had a nice if rather gnarled face. The once cute turned-up nose, as sweet as a button, was now turned down and slightly bent to one side. A fact once cruelly observed by an irritated high and mighty Claud Hoadley, after the lowly creature had dared to address him outside of Derby Cathedral. True, the ancient gnome was misshapen. He was worn by years of lavatory living and long exposure in the howling wilderness winds of North Derbyshire. But Nobby was not so old or as hideous as the Belper Goblin. Nobby had nothing of the leering, fish eyes of that crooked old crone, or any of the knobbly carbuncles which disfigured the countenance of the weather-beaten Toby Jug. And knobbly Nobby was totally innocent of the lust infested, fat, stubbled, slobbering face of Heanor’s Guzzly Granddad. Moreover, he certainly had no trace of that twisted look inflicted on the repulsive face of Becksitch Betty by a life time of sustained, spiteful thoughts. ‘A penny for your thoughts,’ I said to Nobby. ‘I’m thinking about my friend Ron. It’s his birthday,’ replied the gnome, sadly, still staring out over the wide Vale of Trent. ‘That’s nice,’ I said, treading carefully, mindful of deep waters. ‘How old is Ron?’ ‘He would have been 82 today.’ said Nobby - in a voice which was steady – but only just. ‘Would you like to talk about it?’ I encouraged. Nobby shook his head. This strange gentleman of the road, remembered with affection, took his secrets to the grave. From fragments of information, I attempted a reconstruction of Nobby’s early life in old Nottingham in Secret Summer - Chapter 30 - Narrations of a Naughty Gnome. Nobby the Gnome was a fairytale character who appeared to be a natural work of art. He seemed to have morphed out of the very elements of Derbyshire. Long after he was gone, his face could still be seen in the gnarled, knotted, writhing and twisting trunks of ancient trees depicted with more skill and imagination than any human artist could achieve. At any moment, his head might poke out of a hollow old oak, a suitable home for such a character. He could be seen sitting in the coils of choking ivy, or in the rotting recesses of an ash tree recovering from a long hard winter. The imagined representation of that old gnome was as invisible as the hidden gay underworld in the Peak District itself. Throughout most of the 20th century, the illusive sprite had always been there one minute - and gone the next. Now he has gone forever. He has reunited with other bizarre elements of Derbyshire homosexual history. They have all passed away, gone to that Great Cottage in the Sky. We will never see their like again. Narvel Annable  Secret Summer is available from Narvel's Dobba's Delights store on Amazon. Click here or on the above book cover.
 Good friend Allan Morton sent me a link about a TV programme which is worth a watch - https://youtu.be/AFs8oDf_P30?si=C2FlncxK19-Q61g1 It's called Books That Made Britain - Rebel Writers of the East Midlands, focused on D H Lawrence and Alan Sillitoe. I knew Bill Smith would be very interested in this excellent short film featuring Saturday Night and Sunday Morning and Sons and Lovers. Bill and I go back a long way - all the way back to the Ilkeston College of Further Education where we studied (amongst other subjects) drama in the 1960s. He became an actor and executive producer of Westwood Films 2003. Bill’s feedback was enthusiastic and informative - Hello Narvel, Thank you for bringing this programme to my attention. I have professional connections with Alan Sillitoe and DH Lawrence. Saturday Night and Sunday Morning was filmed back in 1959. I researched and recorded some of the locations on my Westwood Films Facebook page. Original photos were taken by the crew location photographer in Radford and around Nottingham. After viewing this programme, I noticed that the locations chosen were some of the sites featured in the film. Such as the scene with Albert Finney and Rachael Roberts at the top of Nottingham Castle and also in front of the Left Lion that fronts Nottingham Council House. I worked with Shirley Anne Field on a BBC Drama in Birmingham back in the 80's and met Albert Finney in London when he was appearing in the play Alpha Beta with Rachael Roberts. We chatted about Nottingham and how the city had changed since the filming took place. There's also footage with Alan Sillitoe taken in Yates Wine Lodge in Nottingham City Centre and in the Raleigh factory. I've had the privilege of hearing and meeting Alan Sillitoe at Eastwood when he came to give a talk relating to his work when he was invited by the DH Lawrence Society at the Dora Phillips Hall. That may have been in the mid 90's. I have a small part in the film The Ragman's Daughter, which was the disastrous sequel to Saturday Night and Sunday Morning filmed in Nottingham in 1971. With regard to Sons and Lovers, Brinsley Headstocks were dismantled last November due to safety issues stating that they had severely deteriorated and could collapse. They are of cinematic significance because of the mining accident scene shot in the film version of Sons and Lovers. They were one of the oldest mining headstocks in existence in the UK. I re-enacted the role of Walter Morel down at 28 Garden Road (the Sons & Lovers house) property for D Amos when he asked me to play the role using the BBC script during a Miners Commemoration weekend in 2017. Rebel Writers of the East Midlands is an enjoyable and educational film which I nearly missed. Thank you again, Bill Smith Nicola Monaghan, who discusses Saturday Night and Sunday Morning in the film, is also an excellent writer of novels, scripts and short stories. More information about Nicola's work can be found on her website: https://nicolamonaghan.com/  Several readers contacted me with enthusiastic interest in my 1960s memories of the Derby Turkish Baths.
I was inspired to reveal further details of youthful adventures in that sexy venue on Reginald Street. For safety and anonymity, all names are changed as they were in the original novels. These characters have become well known to my regular readers such as the snooty and sneering social climbing snob - Clarence. He and his partner Bob were regulars from the 1950s up to the 1970s. They invited me back to their home in Nottingham where I was dazzled by the quality of lavish drapes, swags, and extravagant festoons which framed large windows. Turkish Bath attendants Charlie and Fred were often bad-tempered, ever complaining and tip hungry. They hated bathers who left them nothing, but were obsequious to Bob and Clarence who always bought their silence with a ten bob note. I could never understand why Clarence was always so nasty to me. Even after I praised their car, a beautiful Vanden Plas, he sneered at my humble bicycle. ‘Neat, really neat. That expensive-looking conservative colour, lovely posh leather, nice wooden finish inside - all such good taste. I was admiring it tying oop me bike tat lamp post.’ ‘Bicycle! How quaint,’ came the concise reply, pregnant with derision. ‘So well equipped,’ I continued with enthusiasm, trying to ignore the put-down, ‘switches and buttons everywhere ... and automatic transmission! Very few English cars have automatic transmission.’ ‘We have everything .... except money.’ This last line of five condescending words, carefully enunciated with subtle sarcasm, was offensive to me. Apart from the clear implication that Clarence was heading off a request for money, I was enormously impressed by the way this gentleman had pronounced that one word - 'money'. It was drawn out to about ten times its normal length. It sounded like 'manaaaieryyy' - in stark contrast to my working class - 'm-oo-ny'. I’d heard BBC announcers say 'money' thousands of times but, to hear it live, directly from the mouth of a real person (or perhaps an unreal person) was a striking experience indeed. Looking back, Clarence was obviously jealous of Bob’s interest in me. I received an email from an old friend - I’ll call him John. ‘You’ll remember me from those Turkish Bath days - especially the time when your posh friends invited us out to a slap-up meal at that expensive restaurant.’ I recall the occasion well. Bob and Clarence made a beeline for John’s well-endowed manhood and intended to further explore the delights of his tempting teenage body after investing in a feast which we thoroughly enjoyed. Young lads are always hungry. Heterosexuals might be shocked by the promiscuous standards of queer conduct in the 1960s when it was usual for older men to buy sexual favours from boys like John and myself. It was standard practice in our secret world of same sex attraction. We were from colliery backgrounds. We were poor and most older guys could afford to pay. This particular evening was memorable for reasons other than lust and orgiastic contortions in that setting of lavish drapes, swags, and extravagant festoons. I had forgotten that particular sexy soiree until John gave his own hilarious account of the unfolding drama - ‘After the meal, we were invited back to their ritzy Nottingham residence. We were hardly inside when Clarence pounced on me, uncovering my bare bum!’ Even a rough couple such as ourselves were mindful that certain red lines should never be crossed during an orgy. Sex is sacrosanct. There is an unwritten cardinal rule. Utter no sound other than moans or grunts of ecstasy. Alas, I broke that rule. Back to John - ‘Hardly seconds into this binge, I developed a fit of uncontrollable hysterical laughter which became infectious! It affected us both. It was awful! We couldn’t help it. Clarence and Bob were really pissed off. They went to bed that night unfulfilled and furious. ‘Every time I caught your eye, it got worse and worse, crippling our concentration. I think it’s called corpsing.’ Reading John’s email, it all came back to me with a further fit of giggles. Unfortunately, a few days after that debauched revel, I broke a second cardinal rule. Do not discuss or gossip to a third party any erotic details about wild activity or bodily contortions observed in a sex orgy. As an uncouth youth, I met all strands of homosexual society high and low. There was a narrow and powerful clique known as the Derby Cathedral Queens who considered themselves to be elite, superior and privileged. Claud Hoadley was at the height of his power at the time of this failed sex splurge. Claud controlled his fawning entourage by means of highly polished vowels. Effectively, he ran Derby Cathedral on Sunday mornings and the sumptuous Friary Hotel on Friday evenings. I was an occasional visitor to Claud’s august gatherings when a few unguarded words enraged his High Anglican standards. Still chuckling from the Nottingham incident, I thought the following would amuse them - ‘I had such fun at a recent sex party. At one point, I saw a man with his head deeply buried in the buttocks of another kneeling man. It kept me laughing for days!’ A few smiled, but all smiles were quickly wiped when Claud, spitting feathers, spat out – ‘How dare you revile us with such filth! YOU might find such disgusting behaviour amusing but you’ll not drag us down to into your gutter.’ Mr Hoadley did not actually order me out, but I crept away in deep disgrace and learned a valuable lesson. One disciple approached me privately – ‘Don’t take Claud’s self-righteous tantrum to heart. It’s fuelled more by his envy of your youth and casual lifestyle. He’s getting on now and would never get invited to such a naughty knees-up. If only!’ Narvel Annable A Murder Mystery set in Belper 1949 Death on the Derwent, a popular novel first published in 1999, rapidly sold out. With mixed feelings, I agreed to a Second Edition reprinted in 2014. Why mixed feelings? In the introduction to the Second Edition (see the photograph below) I attempted to answer this question. In 2014, I also published the gay novel I most esteem – Sea Change which is a factual autobiography concealed inside a book disguised as a work of fiction. A joy to write, Sea Change is the novel of which I am most proud. Death on the Derwent is the title which inspires in me a feeling of shame and betrayal because, still in my closet, I was complicit with homophobia. In 2003, bravely, I made a break with the past and published Lost Lad which revealed my homosexuality. An American publisher in 2010 gave me the chance to take the next step and share with the world a powerful gay love in Secret Summer which gripped me in 1966. Double Life in 2019 and 16 in 61 in 2022 provided further clarifications exposing the pain and suffering of LGBT people in the 20th century.          Copies of the Second Edition of Death on the Derwent are availabe from Narvel's Dobba’s Delights Amazon store, by clicking here.
First editions might still be available on the internet. A short film based on Narvel's Death on the Derwent was once made as a college project by Duncan McFarlane. This can be viewed on YouTube by clicking on the following link: https://youtu.be/am_2CXCZJTw |
